Dimirtrius left soon after we had spoken. I assume he had more deals to make that night.
I made conversation with a few of Aimee's friends. Most of them seemed very superficial. The conversation was limited to fashion, weight and celebrities. I got bored fairly quickly.
I noticed Aimee had slipped out on the balcony alone. I curiously followed her a few minutes later. She was sat on the floor with her back against the rails concentrating intently on lining up white powder on a dvd case.
"Mind if I join you?"
She looked up at me surprised. She shifted over and I sank down behind her.
"No thanks I don't touch the stuff."
She shrugged and carried on. I pulled out a cigarette from my tiny bag and lit up. I silently smoked while she snorted a line. She leaned her head against the rails and breathed heavily.
"I say God damn!" She jokingly quoted the line from Pulp Fiction.
There was an awkward silence again.
"Don't tell (Solicitor)."
I was slightly pissed off by what she said. It shouldn't matter to him what she does anymore. They're not together.
"He never saw the bright side of life. So boring!"
I suppose through the eyes of a druggie a well-established, composed lawyer could seem a little boring compared to the smack heads that roam the streets at night begging for spare change. I was really starting to get pissed off with her. I regretted coming outside to talk to her.
"Why do you do it?"
She looked at me as if I had asked a stupid question.
"Seriously Aimee, the last time I saw you, you were in such a state. Why would you do something like that to yourself?"
It may have been due to the cocaine but Aimee just started talking. She didn't stop. She told me about her modelling career. She told me about what should have been a brief relationship with Solicitor. Her horror at an unwanted pregnancy.
"Can you believe he asked me to marry him? Why couldn't he have just encouraged be to abort it like any other normal guy!"
She told me about their son. How she loved him but she just wasn't ready to be a mother. She told me how she hated being a wife. Having to think about other people and the consequences of your actions.
"They say you love your children unconditionally. That’s the problem. I loved him so much but I just wished that he wasn't there. You should always be careful what you wish for."
I got a little emotional when she told me how much she hated herself when he died. It must have been such an awful feeling. To lose someone you love so much and to blame yourself for it.
"You know I felt relieved. How sick does that make me sound? I just wanted to move on. Leave the whole wife and mother thing behind."
Aimee and I are very different people. We have different aspirations in life. Different priorities. I liked listening to her. It gave me an insight into her life and into her mind. We sat outside for a long time. I occasionally smoked a cigarette while she snorted another line.
We spoke about Solicitor. She told me that she never made him happy. She didn't know how and most of the time she didn't really care. She'd regret the way she felt every so often, especially when he rescued her from bad situations, or when he stayed up all night making sure she didn't stop breathing after a long night out.
I told her that I couldn’t imagine not wanting to make him happy. He's such a wonderful man I'd never want to mess things up with him. If I had what she had I would have held it with both hands and never let it go.
"Yes but there's a difference Elise. He didn't love me like he loves you."
I felt my heart overflow with happiness when she said that. He does love me. He tells me in so many different ways.
Aimee leaned over to snort another line when the balcony door slid open. Solicitor looked down at the both of us, regarding the cocaine. I could tell by his expression that the best thing for us to do would be to leave. I stood up and straightened out my trousers.
"We better go." I kissed Aimee on both cheeks and thanked her for inviting us to the party.
As we walked through the door Solicitor turned back to her.
"You know something, Aimee. The next time you're crying and scared because you think you've taken an overdose don't bother calling me because I won't bother coming."
I gripped his arm in effort to steer him away but he pulled away.
"You'll never change. You'll always be a crack head and I'll be damned if I let you into our lives!"
He stalked out. I gave Aimee an apologetic look before hurrying after him.