Solicitor had a lot of work to do last night so while he dug into the heap of files that needed to be read I decided to check my email on his laptop. I received the following email:
Elise. I miss you. I need to speak to you. Please call me or email me when you get this. I don't have your number. Whatever your situation is please call me. Bradley
He left his number at the bottom of the email.
Bradley and I were an item just over a year ago. Our relationship didn't last long. We were together for three months before he disappeared for two weeks without calling. At first I was worried that he'd been in an accident but I found out from one of his friends that he'd decided to go to Greece with a few friends.
Up until that point we'd had a good time together. He had a cheeky infectious sense of humour. I don't think we ever had a serious conversation. I cared about him but I don't think I loved him. I loved being with him.
When he finally contacted me after returning from Greece he acted as though nothing had happened. I didn't bother reacting. As far as I was concerned he didn't care enough to have a relationship and neither did I. We starting standing each other up. We went for days without calling or thinking about each other. I don't think we even officially broke up. We just never saw each other again.
The email was a shock. I have no idea why he would write something like that. At first I thought it was a joke so I emailed back:
Hi Brad. Long time no hear. Back from Greece yet?! Hope you're okay xx
I got one back within a minute of sending it:
Elise I need to see you. I'm sorry about Greece. Please meet me. Just the two of us. Like it should be.
I wrote an email back:
Brad I'm with someone. It's a bit late to get deep and meaningful don't you think? I wish you all the best. Elise xx
I sent it and got up to get some biscuits. Solicitor was still engrossed with work so I decided to make a cup of tea for us. When I got back to the living room he was on the laptop. I placed his tea on the table next to him.
"You want to tell me something?" I've never heard that tone from him before. His voice was soft but it sent chills up my spine. He turned the laptop so I could see the screen. Bradley had emailed back and it had been opened:
He won't find out. I'll meet you at the Arena at 8 tomorrow. Bradley
Solicitor was angry. Quietly angry. He sat in silence while I explained that I hadn't heard from Bradley in at least a year. The emails were a complete shock and I have no idea why he's decided to contact me. Unfortunately the emails that I had sent him hadn't been saved. The three emails from Bradley looked bad.
"Why were you going through my mail in the first place?" The words came out before I could stop them. I must have made me sound so guilty.
"You answered my phone when Aimee called, remember?"
"That was different!"
"How? You answered a call from my ex wife because you were curious. I opened an email from your ex boyfriend for the same reason."
"That was completely different! I thought she was in trouble. Which she was!"
"Don't give me that crap Elise! You answered because you wanted to know what was going on."
"You don't trust me!"
"To be honest, after reading that email, no I don't."
It was horrible. I started crying and walked out of the room. I needed to get out and take a walk alone. Solicitor stopped me with his voice.
"Elise get back in here!" I felt like a child. I slowly walked back into the room and sat down. I couldn't believe that he wouldn't take my word for what had happened.
"When you told me about Bradley you said it was a short pointless relationship."
"It doesn't sound like it from where I'm standing."
After hours of accusing each other of not having enough faith in our relationship I went to bed. Solicitor pulled out some extra bedding and slept on the sofa. I couldn't sleep. I kept looking at the bedroom door hoping that he would walk through it but he didn't. When I woke up he had already left for work.
My morning at work was horrible. I couldn't think straight.
Solicitor called me just before lunch. He apologised for last night. We spent an hour on the phone. I cried and told him that I love him and that I'd never do anything to jeapordise what we have. He told me that he does trust me and that he didn't mean to act the way he did. I'm glad its over. I can't wait to see him later. I miss him.