Monday, 7 January 2008
Its okay. I'm fine.
Gay Boss is back. He had a wonderful time in South America (despite being mugged by a cab driver in Brazil). We were supposed to have lunch together so we could catch up on everything. I tired to stay calm and collected but:
a) I'm praying that Alec hasn't said anything about me accidentally going into Gay Boss's msn account and accidentally arranging a date with a guy that I accidentally found from the Gaydar website.
b) I'm still in a dilemma. What shall I do about the situation with the contracts? I'm worried that Gay Boss might be involved with changing them. At first I was convinced that Old Prick changed them before he got sacked, but the more I think about it the more I think Gay Boss has something to do with it. Why else would CEO swear me to secrecy?
Because of the two points above I did something very random. I walked into my office and lock myself inside. Its nothing too dramatic. I didn't call anyone and threaten to kill myself or anything and I'm not the first employee to do this. Scruffy Artist has done it a few times. But he's a moody, arty type of person. Its not like me to do anything like this.
Gay Boss knocked on the door a while ago. He sounded so sweet. He told me that whatever is bothering me he's here for me. What a way to make me feel guilty! Bimbo called and left a few hysterical messages. She thinks I've snapped and gone into an acute phase of depression. I called Stoner to tell him that I'm okay, I just need some time alone. He's told everyone to leave me alone for a while.
I'm okay though. I've spent a few hours at my computer catching up on reports to occupy my mind. I'll have to wait until everybody has gone home later before coming out. I feel so stupid. If I come out now they'll be lots of people asking questions. I need to pee. I wonder how long I can do this.....